Mater's Corner: Weary traveler

Things have been really really hard lately and I haven't been able to write. There's a part of me that feels like my words cannot possibly have any meaning because I do not have any bit of my life put together. I am just sitting outside watching my three youngest children play and it brings me great joy. The sun came up over our wooded yard and warmed my weariness. The dog is yapping at the five remaining quail. We lost two more last week to some stealthy predator. I do not know how to have a minifarm. I don't know what I am doing with homeschooling. I don't know how to address all the many issues in my family. I am full of not knowing and doubt and worry and exhaustion. The two year old never sleeps and still nurses like a newborn at night. It all seems too much. It is too much. But you know what? I was never meant to carry all of this myself. Jesus died for my brokenness and He makes up for everything that is lacking in me. Not having control of everything is an enormous blessing. Here you go, Lord take my weaknesses and carry me. I surrender all this mess and brokenness. The dog is still yapping and I am off to find out what shenanigans the little ones are up to now.